ABC of expat woman's life: B - Being an expat woman
What does it take to be an expat? And in particular an expat woman? In the past seven years of my expat life I have come across many different definitions of who I was and what I was doing: international woman, expat woman, expat spouse, trailing spouse.
The first one - international woman - sounds quite neutral. To me, it reflects a woman who has an international life or career. It could also mean that you live in your home country but travel for your work abroad for example.
The next one sounds already a bit more exotic: an expat woman.
A few years ago when I moved to the Netherlands I did not consider myself being an expat woman. Although I was living and working abroad, I did have a "local" husband and friends. I did not participate in the social international community either.
From an international woman to an expat spouse
After a couple of years this changed, as my husband got a project in Mexico City and we decided to move with the whole family there. And there it happened, my label of "international woman" was replaced by a new one: "expat spouse."
Browsing on the Internet, I came across the distinction in the definition of the two. The distinction being whether you have your own career or not. So, there I was suddenly "downgraded" from a woman to a spouse. As a decent "expat spouse" I had of course a cook, a nanny, a housekeeper and even a driver. All the attributes of an expat spouse!
I was enjoying all social gatherings there were to enjoy: mornings for mothers and kids, knitting afternoons with local women, drinks with the "Dutchies," lunches with other expat spouses, book clubs, yoga lessons. You name it! I have been there and have done it. Life was fun!
So, when did I turn into a "trailing spouse" then? And who has ever invented such a name! A trailing spouse sounds very passive to me.
It sounds like you really do not choose for a life of your own but that you simply have to follow your husband and his career, whether you like it or not. It even sounds like there is a resistance, to be on a trail means that you are being pulled by someone else. You do not take part in making a decision, you do not have your own will, you are just being pulled by your husband.
To even make it worse, you are not even a woman but you turned into a spouse. All your other roles such as being a mother, daughter, sister, friend, or colleague have been swiped away. How unfair is that?
More than being a spouse
It is true that some of us do decide to put their own career on hold in order to support the career of their husband, but that does not mean we are deprived of all other attributes of being a woman, simply because we decide not to work for sometime!
It is most of the time a woman who is in charge of building again a new nest for the whole family, starting a new social life, making sure kids feel safe and secure in their new environment.
Furthermore, you have a life of your own to re-start with making new friends, deciding to find a new job or starting a new career or study. It sounds to me like so much more than just being a spouse. Most of us give of course support to their hard working partners but that is one of our roles and not the only one.
Do not let yourself be locked (by yourself or others) in one of the drawers labeled "trailing spouse." As an exercise you can write down your name in the middle of the sheet of paper. Then write down on the same sheet of paper, around your name all your roles that you fulfil at the moment. Circle them, draw a line from your name to the role and see now how many important roles you have!
What is your story? How did you become an expat woman? If you feel like please share it below.
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